"We're all pretty bizarre. Some of us are just better at hiding it, that's all."

8:16pm: It's been almost a year (49 weeks) since I updated this and now
I just felt this really odd urge to journal, more specifically live journal. I'm not sure what that means- maybe I'm in a similar place to where I was around this time last year when I was still writing in this somewhat regularly. That's the only possibility that seems to be even remotely pro

I've been feeling like my life is a movie lately... a movie about the beginning of someone's life, before anything really great happened, but when you look back you can see signs in them that something amazing is going to come from them. Maybe this is stemming from this positive energy I get from all the people around me- when I look at my friends and my classmates, I can just feel the potential in them, the great things that they all will do, or could do. I keep wondering what exactly is going to come from this potential, but obviously I won't know until it's been done. I can see it though- in Dan there's this amazing psychoanalyst, brain full of crazy theories to explain human behavior that are just crazy enough to work, in Deirdre there's a tortured artist, breaking through her problems to make something wonderful, in Sarah there's a world traveling fashion designer, in Lauren there's an award winning, best selling novelist. I have no idea how to actually explain this, but there's this constantly changing image in my head of "The Future," the big deal, we're all doing what we plan to with our lives future. I can see all the possibilities, blending in and out and overlapping and it's incredible just to think about all of the places we could reach if only we tried hard enough, or had the right luck, or created just the right thing.

Maybe it's a naively hopeful feeling, but I honestly feel like the people who populate my life are going to do incredible things, and I feel lucky to be able to witness this part of their lives.

11:20pm: Ugh.
Sometimes I just feel like smacking myself in the head. I get SO nervous about things I can't change or have already missed my opportunity to change.

7:50pm: It has been farrrr too long
since I updated this thing.

Today has been SO FREAKING EXCITING! I am not going to lose my driver's license. WOO FUCKING HOO! Although, I do have to do 20 hours of community service, pay a $200 fine, and be on probation for a year, but whatever...I still have my freeeeedom!

I'm having the worst week ever aside from that. I've had two tests and two essays already, and I have three tests and an oral report left. Although, I think I get to take one of the tests Monday...which is quite nice.

I am still behind on everything- I haven't really moved forward at all in my college decision making process.

:(

I am oficially the lamest person ever, solely based on my plans for this weekend. Proof: Friday- go to Dinner for great aunt's birthday party, Saturday- go to Board of Trustees meeting, then dinner with a couple girls from school for Amber's birthday, Sunday- go to Faith's confirmation, then do homework all day. blegh.

I just got limewire again, and I'm so excited! I love music!!!

Anyway, I can't think of anything important to write about, so I'm out homeskillet.

<3

1:36pm: Things going on with me.
Ummm....so.

Since I updated this, I.....

-Have been accepted to New College

-Narrowly escaped being involved in a car accident again

-Have been attacked by Gracie about 43 million times

-Saw the movies Horton Hears a Who and Jumper

-Have gone insane

-Have realized I need to do homework- REALLY BADLY! but I'm still on here, so whatever.

ahh
adios

12:45pm: Just a Little Selection of Quotes from My World History Professor, Dr. Gnimbin Albert Outtara, profe
"I am no longer free to look anywhere I want because these underwear are in my eyes!"

"I'll pass around the cute Karl Marx, and you can all experience him"

"You do not like communism? So you enjoy being opressed?"

"So, if this picture tells you that a black woman is 'loose', what does it say about a white woman?"
"that she's tight?"
"EXACTLY!"

"If you are a man you walk into the female bathroom, just to try it, and just say sorry. If Dr. Outtara walks into the female bathroom, even if no one is there, he will be ashamed, because society tells us that is wrong!"

11:28pm: Basically
I don't think I'm going to be accepted to New College....I'm supposed to hear from them by the 15th. It is currently the 13th and no dice.

:(

12:13pm: "It's a Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood"
Today is amazing. I might think this just because I few days ago I was knee deep in snow, but the weather is fantastic for being outside, and the sunshine is amazing.

I hate that I have to be inside for classes...I wish I could just frolic in the sunshine all day, sadly, life gets in the way of that.

Somehow, after a week of having practically no responsibilities, I'm even more behind than I was before spring break. Ahhhh! I'm astounded at my irresponsibility.

I think we need to have a Florida trip meeting....so we can talk in person about money and location and stuff....any thoughts on that? I also think it's been wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy way way too long since we've all done something together...

8:34pm: Update on New College with random addition concerning Marlboro...
Heyyy….so, after all this time, I’m actually updating about New College!!!
First of all- I LOVE IT!!! It kills Hendrix, which is entirely unexpected- I hadn’t really planned on liking it this much. I learned a lot more about the way they do education, I saw the dorms, the theses room, the library, and the whole campus. It’s pretty nice- I mean, it’s not a big, fancy school, but everything is nice enough. The campus is SO beautiful- I was so surprised by that- it’s on the Bay and like 10 min, away from a beach and a cute little shopping area. I went to two classes- General Chemistry 122 and Developmental Psychology. It was really nice to see classes in which people actually answered their professor’s questions…it seemed like everyone really cared about their classes and was really prepared. Plus…they would likely give me credit for my college classes, which I didn’t really expect because of the untraditional way they do things there.
My mom and I drove all over the surrounding area- there’s a cute little area with all sorts of nice stores- like expensive-ish stuff in one direction and a more relaxed, less expensive area with like a Wal-mart and a Walgreens and that kind of stuff. The beach was really pretty, and really close- our tour guide said she biked there, but I dunno if I’m up for that…I’m not really a very good biker (I once ran into a trashcan in front of a smokin’ hot guy). Basically, New College exceeded all my expectations. If I were going to pick right now I would pick New College over Hendrix (I know…that sounds fickle, but I feel like it’s wayyyy better than Hendrix), buttttt I know I could be happy there too, so whatev.
I still have to see Marlboro and Hampshire…I’m actually on my way to Vermont as I’m writing this. We’ve been driving all day today and we drove all day yesterday. It gets a little boring in the car, but what ev.


UPDATE: I just got to the hotel from visiting Marlboro, and I have no idea how I’m going to decide- Marlboro is so much like New College, but so different too!
They have a “Plan of Concentration” that’s really similar to the senior thesis you write at New College, they have tiny little classes and a great student teacher ratio (8:1), they have tutorials so you can study anything you want to really in depth, they have smallish, but still nice dorms, and a beautiful campus. Marlboro is so pretty, but in a completely different way from New College. There’s snow everywhere, and it’s just gorgeous. All the building are in refurbished farm buildings from three dairy farms, and they have awesome art studios and a pretty rad library. I feel like I’ll never be able to make a decision, but I guess soon I’ll just make a comparison chart. AHHHH! Too much to think about.
So, I’m no longer sure where I want to go to school…but I guess that’s good- it means I have more options and can be more serious about where I go in terms of scholarships and money too. I dunno. I’m really kind of sick of traveling- we’ve been going to a different hotel/inn every night, and I just kind of enjoy being at home.
Au revoir
Joan

10:08pm: New College...
was amazing. Buttt...I slept like 3 hours last night and woke up at six and haven't napped all day and have to wake up at like six again tomorrow. I'll probably give you all the juicy details when we get to a hotel tomorrow. Tonight...I need to sleeeeep.

<3

11:58pm: Flooooorida, Tampa Style
So....Yesterday, around 8 o'clock, after spending a fantastique day listening to music and having meaningful conversation with my mom, we arrived at our hotel in Tampa. It was AMAZING- beautiful, new, clean, shiny, fluffy beds...I could go on an on about it. hahahah. lame. Anyway, after we brought our stuff inside, Kelly walked over from her dorm....we were like a 3 minute walk away from her and we didn't even know it. :) Kelly and I went over to her dorm, ate dinner, and went out with some of her friends to Ybor City. It's a pretty cool place- TONS of clubs/bars with live music, buttttt, as I'm a wee little seventeen-year-old, we couldn't actually go to any clubs, just restaurants with bands playing. Then, we went back to her dorm with her roommate, Emily, who's really nice, and talked for like and hour and watched most of "Help" (The Beatles movie)...we were really tired, and it was like 2:30, so we went to sleep before we were done.

This morning we got up, drove all over Tampa in crazy circles because Ferdinand did NOT know how to properly locate a Starbucks Coffee shop. grrr. Then, we went to the Salvador Dali Art Museum, which kicked ass, and to a park/beach combo thing. It was gorgeous....there were palm trees everywhere and seagulls and pretty waves and we just kinda walked around there for a while. Then we went to see "Charlie Bartlett," which was hilarious and sweet and amazing. Then, sadly, we dropped Kelly off at her dorm and scampered off to our new hotel in Sarasota, where I am now comfortable ensconced in my snuggly bed.

Andddd...I'm kind of exhausted, so I'm gonna go to sleep.
Adios muchachos.

10:55pm: So...
I had a good day- I made an A on one of my psych tests, the highest grade on my psych of learning midterm, I started reading Wuthering Heights [which I LOVE despite the sadness], I tutored Bret, I got a new hook for my pirate key chain, I had delicious pizza, and I have no homework.

I also had a bad day- I had a flat tire today when I left my last class, so I changed it and then the spare was low on air so I had to drive really slowly to like three gas stations before I found one with free air, because I had no money other than my credit card, and those air compressor things don't take Visa. Thennn, I couldn't get my glasses fixed and I embarrassed myself a lot by messing up a really simple chem. problem.

But, overall it was good, and I'm excited about the 227 hours beginning at 1:00 tomorrow.
Going shopping with my gal pals [hahah lame!], going to Florida to see KELLY!, going to colleges, partying like a rockstar, and finishing Wuthering Heights.

<3
Joanie Pony



PS- That amuses me to no end. My laughter is endless. (hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah)(oo)
PPS- pretend the "oo" is an infinity sign. I don't actually know how to make that on livejournal so I gave up.

8:51pm: :(
So, I don't really feel like updating this. Today was fun, mostly, esp. listening to Taylor's ludicrous story about Megan flipping her off/threatening her. I had dinner with Kate, Megan, and Lisa, and it was pretty much kick ass. I came home, and found out that I lost the Hendrix Scholarship competition. So basically I'm sad and don't want to write anything.

Aloha

Oh... Mr. Kim lied to you megarooney. It really was 2170....that was freaking me out so I looked it up.
<3

12:08am: "I like boys with strong convictions and convicts with perfect diction"
Sooo....Today was a pretty fair mix of lameness and really awesome.

Lameness:
I drove all the way to school, realized I left my psych behavior modification plan
at home and then spent 45 minutes driving just about 6 miles on 985
I think I made a B on my psych of learning midterm, and I really need an A.
I'm in a really bad mood, and I can't figure out why.
I'm tired.
Awesomeness:
I'm one of the system finalists for the STAR student thing, so I get to go on to
region competitions, along with a kid from Riverside.
I'm done with my midterm so I can quit stressing about it.
I don't have toooo much homework to do tonight, so I might get it all done.
Next week is spring break, and I'm off to Sarasota, Amherst, and MArlboro to visit
colleges [and see KELLY!!! WOOO!!!]

I don't really know what's up with me, but since Christmas I've been in a really funky mood, I'm hoping it goes away soon.
Grrr.

I need to go finish my homework and actually sleep tonight. Maybe if I sleep more my dreams will be normal again.

Adios Amigos.

4:01pm: I stole this from kate..
52 words

Speed test

8:23pm: So.....
Due to our rendez-vous today and our little discussion about lj, I'm actually going to write in this.

So, What's been going on today?

Um. I woke up, got ready for school, realized I had a nearly flat tire, drove all the way to lakeview on it, filled it up with air, raced to school, parked illegally, and was just on time to sleep through Chemistry and Calculus. Then, I went to lit class, talked about John Keats, studied for my psych test, went to gawk at a French diplomat, went to World Civ, went to art, got paint all over my face/hair, went to take my psych test, basically kicked ass, pulled a parking ticket of my windshield, zipped over to Zaxby's to eat with Megan and Kate, drove back to school, ran on the elliptical trainer [or is it trained? I have no idea], met an ADORABLE OLD MAN, went home, showered, studied, and now I'm doing this.

I met the cutest old man ever at the gym. I was working out and watching CNN's election coverage [I am a Fox News girl, but there was a woman in there before me who was watching CNN, and I am also a lazy girl, so I just left it on], and when I stopped to go to the water fountain he was like "I really admire you for watching CNN. It's so nice to see young people who care about politics and the world" and I was just like "awww. thanks cute little exercising grandpa"

I have a midterm in Psych. of Learning tomorrow, on top of that Star student thing. I wish it could have happened any other day, like honestly, the day of my midterm? UGh. Oh well, I feel kinda well prepared-ish, except for this stupid idiot formula Hull came up with to predict behavior, that doesn't even really work and has like 500 million variables.

I can't really think of anything exciting to write about. Oh! I'm kinda sorta in love with a hot doctor who goes to my gym sometimes. I mean in love in the "I saw him running on the treadmill for like 2 hours without stopping and he's amazingly hot" kind of way.

On the plus side of life, I have a pair of smokin' hot boots I got at Kohls, and I think I might not be taking lisa to school in the morning. HECK YEAH!

Anyway, off to study for my midterm.

Ciao Darlings,
Joan

2:26pm: Long Quiz I Stole from Some Random Journal I Was Reading
1) Are you an Aunt/Uncle?
Not yet....

2) Can you do a cartwheel?
Yeah

3) What was the last movie you saw in theaters.
August Rush (it was cheesy, but so cute I could almost ignore the cheesiness)

4) Do you eat vegetables regularly?
hahah. Yes, especially since I became a vegetarian....

5) If you were going to get a body piercing, where would you get it?
It depends. I keep planning on getting an industrial bar in my ear(which isn't actually a body piercing...but whatev.) but I never have any money for it....but if I had money, I don't think I would....I love how bellybutton rings look, but not on me....too chubby.

6) Do you ever hang out with someone of the opposite sex?
Yeah

7) What is the weather like right at this very moment?
I don't actually know....I haven't been outside all day...it looks cold though.

8) What is something that you can't wait for?
CHRISTMAS BREAK!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!

9) How many times have you been to Canada?
once, when I was about six.

10) Have you ever had a reptile as a pet?
Mark had a snake named Zeek that Lisa and I used to help with sometimes..

11) What is your favorite fruit?
Mango

12) What song is on your myspace profile right now?
I don't know....I'm rarely on myspace anymore.

13) Who was your last missed call on your cell phone?
Mom

14) Where are you most ticklish?
Everywhere....hahah.

15) How many hours a week do you normally work?
I'm jobless as of right now (why does noone want to hire me?!?!?!?), but as my mom[constantly!] says... "school is your job right now," in that case, I work about 40 hours a week....plus homework.

16) Who's your number 1 on myspace?
I dunno....why the heck is this quiz asking me about myspace?

17)Do you have deep dark secret?
Not really....maybe two.

18) When was the last time you were sick?
A couple of weeks ago...

19) What color is your car?
Silver

20) How many siblings do you have?
Two...a baby sister and an older brother.

21) Have you ever gotten caught sneaking out?
Hahahah. Twice. Once when I was 12 (or maybe 11?) and once when I was 15.

22) Did you ever try running away from home when you were younger?
No....but I pretended to one time...

23) What makes you the happiest?
Being around people I like...

24) How do you feel when you see a child at the store throwing a "Tantrum"?
Surprised...I almost never see that happening.

25) Where do you want to be right now?
In my bed....I stayed up wayyyyyy too late last night to have gotten up at 8:00 for homework.

26) Have you ever finished a Rubik's Cube?
No, but I've also never tried.

27) When is the last time you drank too much?
About two weeks ago...

28) When was the last time you rode a bike?
A month ago....

29) Do you have any vacation plans for this summer?
Yep. I'm going to Florida with my family, hopefully florida with the seniors, and hopefully the cabin in dahlonega with hannah a couple times.

30) Where were you 1 hour ago?
On the couch, taking an online calc. quiz.

31) Who will be your next kiss?
No idea....

32) Do you kiss a lot of people?
Not really, I've kissed maybe 4 people total from my first kiss until now.

33) Are you wearing socks right now?
YEAH! I live in antarctica.....

34) When was the last time you went out of state?
When I went to visit colleges with my mom and lisa

35) Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
no

(where is 36??) I DONT KNOW! I hate these idiot things....just put an actual question!

37) What are you wearing right now?
Purple tshirt, bluejeans, and really funny halloween socks

38) What was your last purchase?
6 packs of notecards for studying and 2 sticks of eyeliner

39) Last thing you ate?
some reisens...they're amazingly delicious

40) Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
No...but my mom got me my christmas eve pajamas yesterday....

41) Are you a sexual predator?
Erm...no. creepy.

42) What is in the backseat of your car?
I can't even begin to list everything....it's so full of crap. ew.

43. Three words to explain why you last threw up?
gross stomach virus

44. What is the equation for the Pythagorean theorem?
a squared + b squared = c squared

45. What was the last movie you watched?
Waiting...it's really funny....but in a perverted guy way...

46. Do you think Barbie is a negative role model for young girls?
Not really, barbie kinda freaks me out though because I read a book about barbie and it said she was modeled off a german sex toy dolll.....and we give them to small children. ew.

47. What kind of car does your father drive?
Probably a pt cruiser....he always wanted one of those.

48. Do you like scrabble?
OMG YESYESYES! SCRABBLE IS MY FAVORITE BOARD GAME EVER!

49. Where did you attend high school?
Lakeview and Brenau

50. Favorite scent?
Laundry, rain, hot coffee

51. Do you like mornings?
Yeah, when I'm awake enough to enjoy them

52. Last television program you watched?
Project Runway

54. Does your neighbor have an animal that annoys you?
No....but they do have middle of the night fiestas that bother me....

55. Does your family own any boats?
We have a kid's inflatable boat for the swimming pool

56. Something you can't live without?
air.

57. Do you wear flip flops constantly?
NEVER! I have really ugly feeeeeeeet.

59. Do you have air conditioning in your room?
Yes...

60. Have you ever kissed your dog?
i have no dog, but if I did, I wouldn't kiss it.

61. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
having circle time at school

62. How often do you read books?
Almost everyday, but during the school year it's more like everyother day

65. Describe the computer you are currently using?
an IBM thinkpad, missing 2 keys and covered in stickers...

66. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
an hour to an hour and a half. I can be ready to go in like 10 min.....it's just a very scary sight.

67. Will you donate your organs after you pass?
Yeah.

69. Would you ever get your nipple pierced?
Maybe...

70. If you could pick one person to be with forever who would it be?
I dunno.....

10:30am: Oh...this is really weird, but Lisa said this in her sleep last night and I wanted to tell her about
"Did you know that this little thing had to take the pole feet and the bell and that to get somebody’s attention? Mhm."
and then she made a bunch of weird clicking noises. It really freaks me out.

10:29am: At school
I have an essay due in two hours that still isn't finished.
And a test to make up in 3 hours that I haven't studied for.
On the bright side....I passed Lisa Allen on the way to school today. I don't think she noticed me. Oh well. Oh...I think your rear driver's side tire might be low...just thought you might want to know.
I have approximately 3 classes, 2 make-up tests, and 1 Senate meeting until Thanksgiving Break!
Ahhhhhh!
I feel really disconnected from everyone...my lakeview friends, my new brenau friends, my old brenau friends, my family. I don't know why, but I think it's because I put little to no effort into anything lately.
I also just realized today that I have 2 weeks until my first exam!
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I am completely unprepared for that...Thanksgiving Break was going to be a nice, relaxing break from school, but apparently it's goingto be a review session/cleaning and moving extravaganza. My mom's friend Lawanna is coming to stay with us over the break...so we have to clean everything and get our furniture in the house. So very Coles to wait until the last possible moment to realize that you have to have most of your furniture in about 3 days.
I'm not sick anymore....but my nose is all sniffly. I think I'd rather be sick enough to miss school than have an annoying sniffly nose that makes people stare at me in class/plays/coffeeshops.
My mom is driving me COMPLETELY INSANE. Seriously, I'm considering running away to Zimbabwe to find some peace and quiet. Augh.
Anyway, I REALLY need to go finish that essay, but who knows, maybe I won't. I've become such a slacker. I haven't fully finished even one college application...and I missed two early action deadlines already. I'm so ashamed of myself.
anyway,
time to make some actual effort.
Adios!
-Joan

9:41am: So.....
I'm sick. I think I probably have strep throat, but I'm not sure.
I can't go see Beowulf :( and that just sucks.
I just realized that exams are in three weeks....ahhhhhhhh!
That is so freaking scary!
Buttt....it means that it's almost Christmas break! Wooohoo!
On Monday, we went to see Macbeth at the SHakespeare Tavern and it was AMAZING!
I loved it so much. The audience was really annoying though...people kept laughing at lines/scenes that weren't funny. ugh! Oh well...
I can't actually tihnk of anything to write, so, I'll probably write more in this later.

9:09pm: My new favorite band
is the Moldy Peaches.
I especially love their songs "Nothing Came Out" and "Anyone Else but You".

My mom just let Lisa and I have a glass of the best wine ever. It was a really sweet, fruity, white wine.

I haven't finished my homework yet. I still need to do my lit rough draft, but I can't find any fucking sources!
ahhhh!

night

11:11am: Welllll..
This morning I went to the dentist. One of my fillings from when I was little has been ground down, and I have to have it filled. The Dental hygenist who always cleans my teeth kept telling me to floss...but it's so much work because of that idiot retainer. I need to though. After that I went to get my glasses. I like them, I guess, they fit my head, but I still look ike a librarian. Ew. I can see so much cool stuf fthough. Like little, tiny words or pieces of grass.....it's freaking sweet!
I just realized that November 13th I'm going to the shakespeare Tavern with my school, so I don't think I can actually go to one-act competition, isn't it that same day?
:(
Hopefully I'm confused.
If y'all want to come, Kate, Kirk and I are going to Cafe and Crepes after school today.
anyway,
time to go.
-Joan

11:58am: INteresting week so far.
Dr. Southerland just pretty much called my entire World Civ. class "temptresses of the flesh."
wow.

11:15am: THE CONCERT WAS AMAZING!
She Wants Revenge kicked ass! They were amazing!!!
We got there in time to see the last song of the first opening band (the Start) and all of the second (Kenna) before She Wants Revenge came on. It took forever for them to start- there was something funky going on with their microphones, and they didn't start until 11:00. They played until 1:00, a really good mix of their old CD and their new stuff, about 50:50. I got home around 2:30, cause we had to drive to Cameron's house and then wait for my mom to come get me, and then my mom and I went to get coffee and talk about her trip and the concert and what I did while she was gone. I slept late(-ish) today, took Lisa to school, helped my lit teacher with her daughter's halloween costume (She was confused on how to hem it), went to see a college rep (Presbyterian College...I didn't want to go, but they made all the seniors come because nowhere near enough people were planning on listening to him). Ella (Mrs. Burt's daughter) is going to be "a ghost. oooooooh.....that's fooky." <-that is what she says if you ask her what she's being. Now, I'm in World Civ. making plans to sew my halloween costume tonight. I haven't even cut it out! (ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!)! I'm being a girl Zorro (I couldn't find a pattern close enough to make a joker costume...that requires more preplanning :( )
I need to go work
-Joan

12:32pm: Wow....psych was fun today.
"Okay, I want you to go home, google Frued, and have some fun with yourself"
"You have my full permission to giggle"
"When I was younger, I exhibited a perfect example of Freud’s phallic stage in my misinterpretation of the lyrics to Frere Jacques: Frere Jacques, Frere Jacques, Dormez-vous? Dormez-vous? Simon lost his penis, simon lost his penis, din din don, din din don"

10:38am: "You should be women. And yet your beards forbid me to interprest that you are so."
-Banquo, to the witches in MacBeth

HAhahah.
This made me laugh so much. The witches in my class are all snotty, popular girls.
BEARDS!